This is my place of refuge. This is where I can open up about the deepest, darkest, “aha” moments as I slowly am recovering from addiction, abuse, and divorce. I am a single mother of two beautiful children. I was married for 12 years while maintaining an addiction and being a victim of abuse. The hardest thing I did was finally walk away from everything I knew even though unhealthy. I didn’t know how to end that part of my life and I dove deep into my addiction. Deeper than I thought was possible. After a good 2 years of major addiction and becoming very sick, I chose sobriety and finding a better way. Life doesn’t come easy, but my hardest day is 10 times better than my best day as an addict. Every day I am choosing to face my reality and that means coming to terms with my past, which is everything I was trying to run from. I was in hell for years. I am now coming out from the dark and this is my experience and reality.